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girl therapy #1 The Scales by Seejay

I love girls. And it’s not just the fact that they’re cute as h—-, give the best company, nor make some genuine friends. They puzzle me. I can’t figure them out. And that just drives me crazy over them. Each one of them is different, unique, and a challenge to handle and understand. I have many friends that are girls as well as girlfriends and it’s an endless cycle. I love it. That’s why I’m writing this.

Most, if not all the girls that have swayed into my life, have a very curious and quite cute fascination over boys. And what boys think of them. And how boys work.

Girrrrrrrrrrrrrl. I’m yo man. hahaha! I love deep talks, mind expanding ideas, and new thoughts. I love explaining things…? I guess! :)

So girls have always asked me what I think this or that girl looks to me, if she’s cute, if she’s not, if she looks like gypsy, or whether this girl is date-able. Boys are pretty simple I think. We’re basically universal in our tastes for women and if one girl has a certain appearance to one guy, it usually permeates the same reaction throughout most of the boys that lay their eyes on her. To simplify what the F’ I’m sayin’ I organized it into three basic scales or categories (from what I’ve been able to understand so far).

Somatic Scale, Essential Scale, Tweak Scale. In this entry we’ll only talk about a little of the Somatic Scale.

The somatic scale is 100% physically based. It’s a 1-10 scale, wherein a perfect looking girl would assume the 10 rating. And because boys all have different preferences and fetishes pron toward certain attributes in women the scale CAN variate within two numbers. In the which gives her, her Range. For example. If a girl is a 7 (I really like sevens myself) then she has a range of 5~9. Which means MOST boys will rate her within those numbers. NO she probably not be rated a 4 (if the boy rates honestly) nor a 10. Those numbers or anything away from the “center” of her rating is basically impossible. Now, I can write loads about this, and I probably will in a later entry but as for now I think I’ve explained my point.

-Girls are judged the few seconds she is seen. (ex) if there’s a new girl in town and she comes to class the very first day, all the boys will take a second or two out of what they’re doing to take a PROBING glance ahhahaha. They’re interested in what you got, and they will rate you, subconsciously, even if they have a girlfriend, or two. And then they will return to what they were previously doing. But in their mind they will formulate their opinion about you and whether or not they will choose to start liking you.

-Once you get a number, there’s no refunds. You can’t design your body or your face like its some avatar on ‘Simcity create your own world!’ in just one day. Changing your rating is tough, and there are only a few ways to get around the boys shallow eyes. There’s ‘Desensitization’ or the dream effect (which I’ll mention later), gaining or losing tons of weight, car accidents, plastic surgery, and a few others I think, but the gist of it is, it’s extremely hard to change your number. You’re just kinda stuck with what you’ve got? :/ sorry?

-Am I cute? Hot? Not? Yeah, every girl deep inside her really wants to know the true answer to those questions. I guess it’s a way for us to find relief with our body, determine self worth (to an extent), and to see how you can use your body to give you the best chances at what you want. The scale is from 1-10. 1-4 being not really attractive (I like to speak honestly). 5-7, 8ish to being usually quoted as ‘cute’. But this depends on a couple of factors. and 8ish-10 being ‘hot’. Hot is usually termed to me as a lustful word like “Wow, I don’t care who you are but I want you n—— and I want you now”. Kinda deal. When you’re considered ‘hot’, most people don’t care about who you are, but rather what you are. And what they want. Of course I’m not saying that if you’re ‘hot’ that you’re just a stupid brick, no. There are tons of girls that are hot who have wonderfully amazing personalities and flicks to them. It’s just well, most boys don’t care about it? Which is sad to me :(.

but yeah wow, sorry this was long, I’ll keep it tight next time. :) If you have any questions or comments go for it.

1/20 thur

1/20 thurs

called the institution at 9:30 am but it was 5:30 over there and the admissions office was already closed.  Then talked to Rave on Skype for about four hours while I ate apple jacks. Chance and Cassy also chatted. Cassy cried when she talked about her past as well as Dawn. We mainly talked about Dawn which was really sad. How they found her dirty laundry, literally.  The trippy stuff, the drinking, the depressed phone calls. Bellybotton piercing.   Talked about our living church, miracles, and experiences. Rave’s arm.  Went with Johnny to gate one. Mark, Christina, Sakurako, Roach, blk girl. Went to the shacks. Sakurako and Christina didn’t order food so I gave them mine. I couldn’t drink the coffee drink so Mark took it. Then Jake and Sora came and I reordered. Sakuraba spilled something on her shirt. The three girls went to smoke. Gave red necktie and blue one. Went to —— and I got pudding. Went to the screens. Went back home. Sora went with us. Played some stuff and the house, he drifted. pop. I stayed awake till 1:30. there’s pee on my bed and on the carpet.